ender saved me
At the age of 13, I decided I wanted to be a music journalist for Spin Magazine. I decided this after reading Andy Greenwald’s book Nothing Feels Good: Punk Rock, Teenagers, and Emo. My passion for writing and music journalism has never changed and never once have I given up on this dream.
In the last 9 years, I’ve done a lot of things I’ve only dreamed about doing then. I remember vividly how I started, sitting in my room writing out reviews of Dashboard Confessional albums as if I were a real music journalist. Sometimes, I can’t believe I am doing the things I am doing now. I can’t believe I interviewed some of my favorite bands and some of my musical idols. I can’t believe I’m writing letters and sending resumes. It’s funny cause I’m preparing the application requirements and sometimes don’t even know what to say except Pick me because this is all I’ve ever wanted.
Last night I wasted my night updating my Good Reads page. I decided to do two reviews about Greenwald’s books. They were not real reviews but it made me reminisce so bad that I recreated an account on Andy Greenwald’s message board (I forgot my username and password, thats how long ago I visited his site) There I was, reading some of my old posts as a young teenage girl. My username was endersavedme and everything I wrote had hearts next to it. It’s funny how I tried to disguise my age and who I was but it was so blatantly obvious. Here’s some snippets from the board.
From:endersavedme05/10/05 1:16amTo:ALL(1 of 28)410.1anyone here watch grey’s anatomy? i’ve become a huge fan. it bumped the OC as my second favorite TV show (first will ALWAYS be Alias ALWAYS) But anyway, I’ve never seen a show like Grey’s Anatomy. It makes me sad, happy, and shocked and afraid all at once its nuts. I’ve even caught myself crying twice which is weird because I usually never cry over TV. I’m so addicted. Plus the music they play is amazing(IE: rilo kiely, jem, etc) and so is the two theme songs (such great heights by the postal service which is played in the commercials and cosy in the rocket psapp which is played in the credits) Anyway what do you all think?
<3 Laur
“music is for everyone there should be no elitism about it” - Chris Carrabba
This one makes me want to crawl in a hole forever and as far as I can find is one of the most embarrassing. Really, the grammar in this post is terrible. Also, I don’t watch Grey’s Anatomy anymore. And I stopped watching the OC after the second season?! NOTE: This was from 2005. A lot of the posts look like this. They were like OMG I love this. All I can think now is, “OMG, I was such a fan girl.”
From:endersavedme10/23/07 7:28pmTo:agreenwald 11/02/07 2:09pm(610 of 619)249.610 in reply to 249.1Andy, this may be a random question … but where were you born and raised?
i know REALLY RANDOM.
but as for the not so random, do you love the new say anything as much as I do?
<3 Laur
“music is for everyone there should be no elitism about it” - Chris Carrabba
This is probably one of the most embarrassing things in the world. Seriously, I am a young aspiring journalist. I get to ask Andy Greenwald, a music journalist, a member of a community I aspire to be in, one of my idols, one question in the entire world. And I ask him two stupid, irrelevant questions. Questions that don’t even relate to music journalism. The “I know REALLY RANDOM” is the worst part. I can’t stop laughing at it.
As embarrassing as this is, It’s so funny because reading these I have to stop and realize that even though I was completely immature, I was talking to my favorite author and one of my idols like it was no big deal. I wish I could see Andy in person now and sit down and have a talk with him. I feel like there’d be so much I would want to talk to him about. Getting into music journalism and journalism in general, obviously being the most important.
